why do we like to hurt so much

Taylor s POV

I watched her leave the house, in tears. I paced around the living room and got so mad, mad at myself, mad at everything, I should ve just told Hayley I was with my mom, but then she would ve asked more questions. I got even more mad and punched the wall, leaving a hole and pieces of the wall on the floor, I yelled. I fell to the ground against the wall crying. God, I m so stupid. How can I be so fucking stupid! I yelled and punched the wall again. I called her phone and got her voicemail. Hey this is Hayley, sorry I didn t answer, I m probably doing some thing better than you, bye! She giggled, I chuckled and left a message. Hayley please call back, I miss you, I love you, I just wanna hear your voice. At least text me so I know you re safe, I love you Hayles, I m sorry, I should ve told you where I was, I was stupid. But now I ll tell you where I was. I was with my mom to ask her some things. I m sorry Hayles, I love you so much, b- bye I hung up and started crying. After a while I ended up calling Hayley again, she actually picked up. My heart stopped. Taylor? She asked. I nodded, thinking she could see me. Y-yea, where are you? Are you okay? I asked. She sighed. I m at my house, I m fine, I swear. She replied, sounding sad and her voice was raspy. I started crying silently, knowing I can t be there for her, cause I caused that pain. I uh, I miss you Hayles, when are you coming back? I miss you so much. I sobbed. Taylor don t cry, please, I just need some space, can you understand that?


I still love you Taylor, I do, its just we gotta be honest with each other, right? She replied. Yea, yea we do, I m sorry, Hayles, I love you so much, I m so stupid, I m so fucking stupid! I said. No you re not, Taylor, shut up, you re just bringing your self down. She said. I smiled. I m sorry, Hayles. Stop saying sorry, its fine, okay I understand you wanted to talk to your mom, its understandable, I swear, I forgive you. She said. I love you Hayles. I whispered. I know. She replied, I smiled and the phone line went dead. I locked my phone and layed on the couch until there was a knock on the door. I got up and opened the door. It was. Gabby. She was smiling. I was starting to close the door, but she pushed it open, hey, just as friends. She said. I shook my head. No, get away from me, and from Hayley, stay the fuck away! I yelled. She laughed. Taylor! Just let me in! I ll be good, I swear. She said and walked in. Can you get out please? I asked, she shook her head. God what did I ever see in her? Next thing I know her lips are on mine and she s leading us to my room. I pushed her off me. Get the hell out of here now please! I said she laughed and kissed me again pinning my arms down. She unzipped my pants and pulled them down, I took this as an opportunity to kick her in her freaking face. She groaned and fell back, I pushed her out of the house and locked the door. I sighed and layed on the couch in my living room, drifting off to sleep. ----------------------------------
Taylor s POV I watched her leave the house, in tears.


I paced around the living room and got so mad, mad at myself, mad at everything, I should ve just told Hayley I was with my mom, but then she would ve asked more questions. I got even more mad and punched the wall, leaving a hole and pieces of the wall on the floor, I yelled. I fell to the ground against the wall crying. God, I m so stupid. How can I be so fucking stupid! I yelled and punched the wall again. I called her phone and got her voicemail. Hey this is Hayley, sorry I didn t answer, I m probably doing some thing better than you, bye! She giggled, I chuckled and left a message. Hayley please call back, I miss you, I love you, I just wanna hear your voice. At least text me so I know you re safe, I love you Hayles, I m sorry, I should ve told you where I was, I was stupid. But now I ll tell you where I was. I was with my mom to ask her some things. I m sorry Hayles, I love you so much, b- bye I hung up and started crying. After a while I ended up calling Hayley again, she actually picked up. My heart stopped. Taylor? She asked. I nodded, thinking she could see me. Y-yea, where are you? Are you okay? I asked. She sighed. I m at my house, I m fine, I swear. She replied, sounding sad and her voice was raspy. I started crying silently, knowing I can t be there for her, cause I caused that pain. I uh, I miss you Hayles, when are you coming back? I miss you so much. I sobbed. Taylor don t cry, please, I just need some space, can you understand that?


I still love you Taylor, I do, its just we gotta be honest with each other, right? She replied. Yea, yea we do, I m sorry, Hayles, I love you so much, I m so stupid, I m so fucking stupid! I said. No you re not, Taylor, shut up, you re just bringing your self down. She said. I smiled. I m sorry, Hayles. Stop saying sorry, its fine, okay I understand you wanted to talk to your mom, its understandable, I swear, I forgive you. She said. I love you Hayles. I whispered. I know. She replied, I smiled and the phone line went dead. I locked my phone and layed on the couch until there was a knock on the door. I got up and opened the door. It was. Gabby. She was smiling. I was starting to close the door, but she pushed it open, hey, just as friends. She said. I shook my head. No, get away from me, and from Hayley, stay the fuck away! I yelled. She laughed. Taylor! Just let me in! I ll be good, I swear. She said and walked in. Can you get out please? I asked, she shook her head. God what did I ever see in her? Next thing I know her lips are on mine and she s leading us to my room. I pushed her off me. Get the hell out of here now please! I said she laughed and kissed me again pinning my arms down. She unzipped my pants and pulled them down, I took this as an opportunity to kick her in her freaking face. She groaned and fell back, I pushed her out of the house and locked the door. I sighed and layed on the couch in my living room, drifting off to sleep. ----------------------------------

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